It’s been a while since I shared my last blog post. Seems as if I celebrated a year of blogging and then quit. The truth is that I was a little demotivated and started to question my ‘why’ of blogging. I can honestly say that I missed it. For the next couple of months, I’m going to share some intimate details about my life and current journey.
My husband and I are expecting (yaaay ). For us, it feels like forever ago since we found out we are expecting a little simmo. Our story might be different than most but it’s ours and we love it! We have been married for almost 2 years and we said from the get-go that we wanted to wait 3 years before having babies. But it turns out that God’s plan was completely different as we’re not quite done with year 2 and here comes a baby.
How We Found Out
Some of you may have read my struggle with contraceptives from my previous blogs. Even though I didn’t master the art of taking them, I was very surprised when I was expecting one of my very regular periods to come and then it didn’t. I waited a week before getting a pregnancy test. The reason was simply that I was taking Augmentin for a toe infection and Dr. Google said it can delay my period. I waited until I was off the meds to see if my period would come, I gave myself 5 days post antibiotics. Jonathan was fully aware of everything that was going on, by the way, there were no surprises here guys. The day rolls around and still no period so I knew it was time for me to pee on a stick (POAS). I remember it like it was yesterday, or maybe a little more than yesterday. It was a Friday so I left work and went home to get ready for youth fellowship. The only difference was that I drove to the pharmacy and bought the test before driving to church for youth fellowship.
I never thought I’d have more than one option of these pregnancy tests to take, I was so confused that I legit went by price and packaging only. Church was a good little distraction from the anxiety I would have to endure if I had to be home alone waiting for Jonathan. The decision was that I’d do the test when we got home because I wanted Jonathan as involved as possible and I definitely wanted to be in my comfort zone.
The test said it would take about 5 minutes for a result but mine came up almost immediately. It was two lines for a positive kind of stick. Funny thing is that as you see below, it came up as a very faint second line. I didn’t know how to feel and my only thought was “ok” when I saw the two lines. I came out pretty calm and showed him the test and his response was “ok”. Yes, the very same reaction I had. I honestly did not expect this man to have the same reaction because I wanted to feed off his.
I started asking him how he feels and he said he didn’t know. Guess who didn’t want to stay home with her thoughts running wild? Me! We went for a drive to talk (we ended up at subway by the way). Our conversation started with us talking about whether or not we’d be sad or happy if the test was wrong. Neither one of us would have been sad. We wanted to wait maybe two more years and I mentioned the things I wanted us to do before a baby. We ended that night with the decision to take another test before deciding what our emotions would be. I kid you not, I stalked google trying to find possible reasons for a false positive, google is not your friend, so of course, it didn’t help.
We waited until the Monday before I would do another POAS session. I bought the test the Monday evening but decided to follow Dr. Google’s instructions and wait until the next morning to do the test. What google said had something to do with the first pee of the day being undiluted and therefore the best time to take the test blah blah blah, of course, I’m going to listen. I did the test and saw another faint second line, I was over it at that point and we decided we need to have a doctor confirm what’s up.
That very day I came home and saw the seat of my underwear filled with blood. There was more blood than I would see on the first day of my period and so I was confused. It was frightening and after talking to two doctors that night, (my OB and Jonathan’s cousin who is an OB) we decided to go to the doctor the following day and do an ultrasound. The reason why it wasn’t deemed an emergency was that there was no pain and no excess bleeding. I think because of how scary it was, Jonathan told his parents and I told my mom so again, there was no surprise.
After waiting in the doctor’s office for what felt like 5 hours the following day, it was time to go in. We did the ultrasound and saw there was definitely a baby inside me and the heartbeat was very strong. So cool, a baby is there, the baby is ok so why was I bleeding? It turns out there was another sac there that was filled with blood and blood clots. The thought the doctor had was that it may have been another baby but there’s no way of knowing at that point.
Now because of this blood, I had to be placed on pelvic rest and bed rest and I was given some pills to take because I was at risk of having a miscarriage. Miscarriage is not a word I wanted to hear especially when I haven’t even gotten a chance to celebrate or feel good about this life growing inside of me. I had a mission to not stress myself and get some rest. That’s exactly what I did. After two weeks, we went back to the doctor and the blood had dissolved. What a relief. However, my mind was/has been filled with all the stories of miscarries that people have shared with me which didn’t/hasn’t helped me in any way.
The Rest of the First Trimester
I had no idea how many things were off-limits during pregnancy! I got an eye-opener from google. It wasn’t too bad to learn about some of the things because I was already a picky eater, so things like sushi, deli meat, and runny eggs were not things I’d be missing out on. I did, however, cut soda from my diet by choice.
I’ve lived on sites such as thebump.com and whattoexpect.com to track each week’s symptoms, baby’s size, what is developing currently in the baby and what I should be doing to prepare. I downloaded the app “baby center” very recently which is more like an expectant moms’ club. It groups us by the month we’re due and calls it the birth club.
Symptoms I experienced during the first trimester were:
- Mild cramping in my pelvis area.
- A constant need to pee – feels worse at night
- Breast tenderness
- I was incredibly bloated – (thought I had already grown a belly)
- No cravings – (sorry to disappoint you guys)
- No morning sickness
Thankfully, I’ve had a good pregnancy so far (I hope it continues.) The second and third trimesters have been good too, not as exciting but I’ll fill you in soon.
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